Upset

However, a couple weeks ago, I took those pictures. I took a few of a couple of pharmacists, an orthodontist, and my local family nurse practitioner. I spent hours editing them. Then I spent hours trying to print them. I got really into it. I mean, it is photography, and I love photography.

The only problem I thought there would be was that I had to speak in front of the judges. I had to spend one minute on each photo, describing what the photo was about and how it came to be and all that. I was really nervous about that. When does photography involve public speaking? I dunno. 

Well, I entered that room feeling confident, but I left mentally drained. I messed up too many times for it to be deemed socially acceptable. I know that's the reason why I didn't win. I didn't even place.

And it sucks. 

Because now I feel inadequate as a photographer.. They didn't even judge it properly. They judged on how well a public speaker I am and how I present myself. I may be an actress, but it becomes a totally different ballgame when it comes to me standing in front of people and speaking.

The whole competition was judged biasedly. The only people who won were people from higher schools on the food chain; schools whose parents have money. 

I'm just really pissed.

But what do you guys think of my photos? I want your opinion before I chunk them.